Leaving on a Jet Plane

Countdown: 4 days. This is probably my last post before I leave the country.

The one question that has been bugging my mind now is "How do I feel about it?" Honestly, I am not sure about my feelings now. I am excited that I am FINALLY going to medical school. I am also thrilled because I do not know what to expect out of the country I am heading to because I am one of the first amongst my circle of friends to further my studies there. Moreover, I have never thought that I would have the chance to study overseas especially not on my family's own expense.

On the other hand, I've begin to feel a tinge of sadness because this is the first time in my life that I am truly leaving home. (College was not counted since home was 25 mins drive away back then=P) This could have been the reason why I particularly attended plenty of reunions from meeting collegemates to primary school mates during this holidays. Well, other than the fact that I was blessed with over 2 months of no-commitment holidays so I was basically free everyday. =P

Reunion with friends makes me reminisce about my past life, how I've changed, how have they changed and what caused the change. Reminiscing things has been something I have been doing a lot lately...and I am not sure if it is related to turning 20. I've even stopped listening to mainstream music and dug up my old CDs from the 90's instead. My mind wonders on how the technology gadgets have improved and influenced people over the years. I have visited Sri Aman more often than ever and all my high school memories have been flooding my recent thoughts.

All in all, I will miss my family, friends and the life at home. But I know that I will have to leave home sooner or later. Now, I prefer to exaggerate the excitement rather than the homesickness because after all, a new chapter of my life begins. I am going to be a freshman at a medical university abroad wey! Wish me luck =D